What a year it has been! So many changes...I'm not sure where to begin.

First off I suppose is the fact that I have been cancer free for a over a year! My chemo fogged brain is slowly getting back to normal and I am feeling so much better! The only health issue I am dealing with now is a whacked out thyroid. I had a thyroid ablation in March because I could not get my thyroid regulated with medication. I was either hyper or hypo.

So, I now have a totally deactivated thyroid, no thyroid hormone activity whatsoever. As a result I  have no energy, depression/moodiness, brittle shredding fingernails, and more memory problems among other things. However, I saw my endocrinologist on Friday and have been placed on Synthroid, which I will be on for the rest of my life, Cytomel which is used  with the Synthroid to jump-start my thyroid working again. In a week or two I should be back to relative normal~ YAY!

 In other parts of my life, I was transferred to our administration office, which necessitated moving across town to a new apartment. Due to the above mentioned health problems, I am still settling into my new home, which I have been in since December. Almost everything is done except my dining room and living room, both of which looks like a storage room. I have confidence I will have  most of this done in a couple of weeks, specially once my energy and more importantly my motivation is back to normal.

Which brings me to my body health and weight. Thanks in part to lack of thyroid, I have put more weight on than I might normally have. This is by no means the only reason I have gained weight, however, another side effect of none working thyroid is a decreased appetite. So I kinda scratch my head when I gain weight and I am not eating nearly as much normally do.

On the upside, with having taken steps to get my health back to normal, I am motivated to pick up where I left off and start Sparking again. I went shopping today and bought only healthy food to fill my fridge with. I chopped and pre-portioned my fruits and veggies so I can just reach in my fridge when making my lunch and dinner and know I have the proper portions without having to think about it. Whole grains, fresh (and frozen) fruit and veggies, skinless chicken, cereal and even small bags of popcorn, I am ready for the week. I even bought a new scale for weighing myself once a week.

Now I need to get motivated to move! This may take a little more work on my part...need to get motivated and excited again. I will be more likely once my energy returns, but I can't wait til I am totally there...I must start where I am. May a little dancing, I even bought one of Leslie Sansone's walking dvds, This of course will be easier to do once I have room in my living room. Thank goodness I have my laptop and a little room in my bedroom.

So, here I am...baby steps. One day at time. 

Didn't get anywhere near my bedroom today. I did however get so much done on my living room. Kent came over and took my huge couch out to the curb. I moved my loveseat against the wall where the couch was and now there is this lovely, marvelous energy flow! I feel a sense of relief and openess now, that wasn't there before.

As much as I want to get my room done, I am really happy my living room is done. I am comfortable with the fact that I didn't get done what I had planned...I'm learning to be flexible and knowing that not everything has to be done according to a plan...no guilt...no regret...just pleasure at was accomplished and the knowledge that what I want to do is still there and just waiting for me!

Life is good!

Happy Saturday! It is absolutely lovely outside, I can even hear birds singing!

I was up at 6:30 and spent a couple of hours online, visiting with a friend and wending my way through emails and on line projects.Then I turned my attention to my kitchen cabinets. I rearranged my top cabinets and everything was cleaned except the floor. I was able to get in two hours of work in before I needed to rest, then finished up.

I am hoping a friend comes over tonight or tomorrow to help me move my couch out to the curb. Then I am going to put my love seat where the couch is and this will hopefully open up my very small living room!

I am in a seriously motivated spring cleaning mode. I let the apartment go for the six months I was ill; I had absolutely no energy  or interest in keeping the place clean. Well, now interest is back in spades and energy is growing day by day!

Tomorrow my focus is on my bedroom...my sanctuary. Clean, rearrange and love it! Spruce up my altar, put new sheets on the bed and my english garden quilt. Then, I'll feel comfortable doing my little daily rituals, because everything will clean and bright.

Speaking of rituals, my soul is calling out for me to resume my spiritual rituals. I have missed them...my morning and evening rituals. I have a Celtic devotional book by Caitlin Matthews that helps me ground and center myself every morning and evening. I have a handwritten journal as well as a gratitude journal which I need to catch up.

In the morning I discover who my Goddess of the day is and what my focus will be using my fairies and dolphin oracle cards. I contemplate how I want my day to progress and get my mind in the proper mind set.

In the evening I unwind, review my day, place it in the proper perspective and prepare for the sweet realm of sleep with my evening ritual. Oh yes....I have deeply missed my rituals and look forward to getting my sanctuary in a good way so I can resume.

I just can't seem to perform my rituals when my home is a mess. My mama would be proud! *LOL* Growing up I was Oscar to her Felix. She despaired of me every being even a relatively neat person. I am normally clean, but have always have a  messy side.

 I am a packrat and come by it honestly. When mama died, my sister and I went to Dad's to help him sort through her things. Imagine my surprise when I found out my mama was just as  big a packrat as I am, she just had more room to stash stuff! *ROFL* She had a whole house, I have a one bedroom apartment.

Anyway...life is good and my home is slowly coming together. Once the apartment is clean, I am going to sort through all the boxes in my small dining area. I got them out of storage last August, but never had the energy to go through them. Now I know why! *LOL*

Time to make some supper and settle down for the evening. 

Bright Blessings,

Ame