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FAIRE!!!! I went home...*sighs* I saw my faire family and got the hugs and cuddles I needed. I loved the looks on their faces when they saw me(I didn't tell anyone other than the friends I was staying with, that I was coming   ). It was a warm and loving reunion with some of my very favorite people on earth.

 My bards were there and in fine voice....they were on stage when I kinda snuck up on them, leaned against a tree and watched them with joy. The surprise and pleasure on their faces at seeing me made my weekend. I love their music and I adore them...

Everyone is healthy and happy and we had a fabulous visit. The knights are as gorgeous as ever, their horses as huge and breathtakingly beautiful as ever. The Baron was as charming as ever. Thomas the juggler was as awesome as usual, the archers were so much fun to watch.

My Drunken Dragon family was there celebrating one of the DD's birthday. (I don't know all the DDs, but the ones I know I absolutely adore! In fact two of them are coming here for a weekend in June and we are having dinner....I CANNOT wait!! )

It was so HOT! 4 layers of clothing and 101 degrees...WHEW! Oh! Speaking of clothing, I had to get a new bodice...the two I have were TOO BIG!!! (even after taking them in...TWICE! Huzzah!! ) I lost another pound (It was too hot and I couldn't eat much at all) 2 more pounds til I hit the magic 20 lb mark for this go around!

I am planning on going to the Grand Juction Faire in Colorado in August....my bards as well as other friends of mine will be there AND I am meeting an on-line friend there who is also a Rennie. HUZZAH!  I would LOVE to lose another 10 or 20 by then...*chuckles* With the heat here..it may not be too much of a problem....

I took pictures, so maybe I will brave posting them here....I'll have them by tomorrow night....My beautiful friends outshine me....but I was so pleased to see them I actually conceded having my picture taken a few times...just so I have the lovely memory.

I got home yesterday afternoon from a marvelous weekend and my POWER was OUT! *shakes head* I went down to the power company and had a few words with them. I have been in my apartment for going on three months and have yet to receive a bill. I called them twice and nothing was ever done, they said they had my correct address....well, well, well...I got down there & lo and behold, they had my correct address in the computer, but the BILL was going to my old address of two years ago! HA! Their Fault. I do NOT have to pay the reconnect fee and my power was turned on immediately. *sighs* what a way to end a loverly weekend.

In any event....3 more days and we have a three day weekend...WOOHOO!

Brightest Blessings my dear friends,
Ame

Went to the doctor yesterday. My left forearm is swollen, hard and so sore. Doc thinks it may be tendonitis, but I am having a venous doppler today to check for bloodclots. (For those who have know idea what I am talking about, a doppler is a fancy ultrasound that is in colour. It is done on the veins or arteries and tracks the flow of blood in arms, legs and the carotid. Mine will be of the veins in my left arm to look for clots.

While there yesterday, he did the usual routine inckluding listening to my heart...which he did for an unusually long time. He ordered an EKG and discovered abnormalities in my heart beat. He has ordered blood work, an echocardiogram and stress test.

I have always been disgustingly healthy, so I  am not handling this well. I couldn't sleep last night and I will prolly worry myself silly until I can get all these tests, which looks like a couple of weeks from now. *SIGHS* If all these doctor's offices can throw their names around to us do STAT exams on their patients (I work for a radiology center) , why can't I get in sooner for these tests.....I DON'T wanna wait)

On the upside, I have lost a total of 33 pounds from my highest weight. (I had the nurse go through my chart and let know my various weights during the years I have been going to them.) so YEA ME!

Anyway, positive thoughts would be greatly appreciated as I am short on them myself.

Bright Blessings,
Ame

Happy Mother's Day!

9 weeks in my  lovely little home and 14 pounds gone!!!!!!!! YEA, ME!!!! I am just about down to my pre-Michael weight and I am feeling so good. I know that losing only 1 pound a week is good....darn it...I want to SEE it in me. Yes, other people are noticing now *grins* and my clothes are loose...*GRINS*, but I can't see it when I look at me...I see me as I was 30-40 pounds ago. *sighs* Despite everything I often feel ugly when I look at myself. ARRGGHH...I can't WAIT to be able to see it when I LOOK at myself.

I am going to visit Corona Faire in a little less than three weeks. HUZZAH! I have missed everyone so much. It is as if my right arm is missing. I am very excited, especially since I may be down almost 20 pounds by then. How cool is that.

That aside. I can't wait to see my California faire family. My arms are itchng for hugs...lots and lots of hugs.

In other news, I have been thinking really hard about what I want to be when I grow up. I have been playing with the idea of going back to school....There are two things I could pursue....Massage therapy (something I could use in conjunction with my passion for Faire) or Computer graphics...I do enjoy working and playing on the computer...can lose myself for hours.

If I can get grants (and I have been assured I can, being a 46 year old divorced woman) I think I would like to look into Massage therapy....I love helping people and can envision having my own little shop with someone who is into homepathy/naturopathy, aromatherapy, health food, herbal teas, and other cool things. A quiet, soothing, relaxing place for people to come and de-stress. I can almost see it in my mind's eyes.

On the other hand....computers...what a rush...hmmmmmmmm *LOL*

On that note...Happy Tuesday. *HUGS and Kisses*

Bright Blessings,
Ame

Welcome to my site, Compatible, and thank you for the comment! Yesterday was bad mainly because I am not at Faire. The issue of my ex getting married is really a non-issue, it was just a speedbump in my journey.

The three years since he asked for the divorce have a been an exciting and glorious time for me. I have had my ups and downs, but I am discovering what a cool and interesting person I am, a person who was sublimated during my marriage. My marriage to and divorce from Michael was a mighty gift, it was the catalyst for my blossoming (if you will). I have arrived at a place where I don't NEED anyone in my life, and that feels so good. However, I WANT someone in my life, which is a whole other story! *LOL*

I do like who I am (and some days I even love me! *LOL* Those days are more and more frequent).

Yes, I have made mistakes, and yes, I have hurt people without meaning too, in my excavation of who I am.  I am so sorry for the pain I have caused people, but if I am honest, the mistakes I have made were learning experiences, and they are mistakes I have no intention of repeating.

I know who I am and what I want in life. This past year has made me that much more aware of this. Again, this past year is something I had to go through to get to this point.

So, speedbump overcome, I wish Michael and his new wife all the luck and happiness they can find.

I wish for the them the joy and peace I have found.

Bright Blessings,
Ame

I  have been in tears off and on all morning....Palm Springs Faire opens today and I am not there. Most of  my California Faire Family are there. This is breaking my heart.

As a side note, my ex is getting married tomorrow...will I EVER find someone of my own?

ame

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!

Good Morning! What a lovely day this is becoming. I had breakfast, which I made in my own little kitchen, I have my music on and I am so content.

I went grocery shopping yesterday and oh my goodness, it is expensive when you have NOTHING in the place. *LOL* I  have not been grocery shopping in so long, I was not aware of how expensive things have gotten. Luckily, some of what I bought, I won't have to buy again.(at least for some time!)

My living room is pretty well done as is my kitchen! (The maintenance guys came in yesterday and installed a new dishwasher. So I was able to really put my kitchen together.

The Window guy came yesterday also...The rat broke my grandmother's hummingbird music figurine. He just bungled his way in without any by~ your ~leave and didn't even apologize. *sighs* I know it is only a "thing", but my grandmother loved hummingbirds and I adored my grandma and DARN IT! *STOMPS*

Okay....*sighs* Today I work on finishing touches on the living room and kitchen then tomorrow it is all about the bedroom. THAT will take some time....I have so much stuff.

I may try and do some laundry today also...my first foray into my new complex...lucky for me everything I need is within yards of my building....the office, the laundry room, the mailbox and the pool.

Alrighty then. I am off! (but then we all knew that!) *GRINS*

Brightest Blessings,
Ame

I have begun the delightful process of settling in! Most of my things have been in storage for the last year, so it feels like Christmas, as I unwrap everything! I got my things out of layaway at Wal-Mart and have been having a ball putting my bathroom together. I bought myself a lovely little Welcome mat for my front door which tickles me to pieces. *smiles softly* It's the little things, you know?

I am already feeling so much more relaxed. It is such a joy! Now if I can get my sleep pattern back to normal, I'll be thrilled!

Okay....back to the adventure!

Brightest of Blessings,
Ame