February 5, 2002

• Well, The wheel of the year continues to turn and today it was fully day light when I left work. Dusk nestled in as I pulled into my driveway at home.

  
  

  I continue to work on my plans for my dedication on my day and am really excited about making the committment. A birthday is supposed to be day of power and I am truly hoping so. There is so much I have to learn and so much to look forward to this year.

  
  

  While my spirituality is gaining momentum, my marriage is getting more and more difficult. I find it surprising while such an important part of my life is floundering, the other important part of my life is winging me forward on my path. I find it interesting, but don't dwell on it too much.

  
  

  I am finding it harder to concentrate on mundane tasks as I ponder where my future lies, both marraige wise and spiritually. I am also finding myself falling into some apathy, there are times I don't want to do anything, but lose myself in television.(I guess it's like comfort food....Okay, it's escaping and  not having to deal with my reality while I'm visiting other worlds, especially those whose lives are so much worse than mine!) I really do know better, but some days it is so hard.

  
  

  There is stormy weather ahead I am afraid, and I don't know how off course I will be blown. I hope I have the strength to do what must be done. I know that this too shall pass and there are lessons to be learned. I believe that Spirit (Goddes/universe) will see me through. But it is up to me!! I hope I recognize Spirit's influence and my own inner strength to push through to the other side...wherever that may be.

  
  

  Hugz, warm fuzzies, and Bright Blessings,

  
  

  Amethyst

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