August 15, 2002

• I realize now that my disappointment in missing this longed for weekend has been a catalyst for finally beginning to deal with the feelings I have put off working through for the last 6 months. I am in a dark place right now, but I know it is not a permanent place and there is light at the end of this struggle. Again, I know there will be good days and there will be bad days and the more I allow myself to work through the pain, disillusionment, anger and disbelief, the better I will be in the long run. A learning experience!

  
  

  What I really want to do now is to build the walls high around my tender heart and psyche and just be content with my life as it is. Somehow, though, that is just not in my nature. I am one of those who always Stands within the Fire.

  
  

  Amethyst

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