February 16, 2013
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Lessons learned this week
This is been a week of deep introspection, and lessons learned. I believe this is helping as I try to get back to my normal, cheerful, and sassy self. Finally gaining the courage to step on the scale, I find that I am at my beginning weight. Somehow, and I haven’t figured out why yet, this does not upset me. This is my jumping off point. I’m starting fresh.
I’m still mulling things over, but this is what I know. I am still working on weeding through my CLUTTER and I know this is playing a part in where I am at the moment. With so much chaos surrounding me outside, it’s hard to tame the chaos inside. I’m constantly distracted by the mess, even though I am making progress with it. Not only is it interfering with my emotional/mental inner work, it is not very conducive to my spiritual inner work.
This isn’t an excuse…it is a very real problem that I am working hard on, going through a lifetime of memories and “stuff” I have “pack ratted” away. Letting go is VERY hard and I’m half tempted just to throw away everything I have had packed away. If I wasn’t afraid of throwing away something important, I would just haul it all out to the trash. So I just soldier through.
As for more immediate and helpful lessons I have learned from experimenting: I discovered that even though 100% whole wheat bread has more calories than my 100% wheat sandwich thins, they are denser, fill me up better and last longer than the thins.
I have learned that usually no matter what I have for breakfast, I’m hungry within an hour or two. I tried something different this week. I had oj, southwestern eggbeaters, a morningstar prime griller patty and two pieces of whole wheat toast. I felt satisfied and didn’t start to feel hungry until just before lunch. Another thing that seemed to help was having some tea as I work in the morning. It keeps me feeling full longer.
I have committed myself to other little things in my quest to get on my feet again. When making my pb&j sandwiches, I won’t take anymore extra tastes of peanut butter as I am making and after my sandwich is made. Oh! And no more spoonfuls of peanut butter and honey, or syrup or nutella at night when I have the mega munchies!
One good thing about the tea is I am getting more water. I drink a lot of water, but I know I fall short at times.
I’ve discovered the “instant” oatmeal recipe in the Spark People cookbook so I can have a more nutritious oatmeal. It is so much better filling then the store bought, not to mention healthier.
I received my Spark People Blue cup and my WooHoo teeshirt! Woohoo! *LOL* I ordered the shirt in my current size and decided it is time I have a “Before” pic taken. My plan is to buy a new shirt ever few sizes to track my progress and have a pic taken. Just need to find someone to take the pic. I LOVE my blue SP cup! I may get one in every color.
I woke up in the best mood this morning! Lessons are sinking in and I continue to learn new ones. My favorite one thus far I’ve learned is from Lily on this week’s edition of Spark Radio. Lily and Karen were talking about how hard it is to get back into the positive thought patterns after over indulging. We all know that it’s so easy to spiral out of control once a negative thought and feeling show up. Now, for me, this is not only goes for food, but for everything mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical. Which is why it’s so hard at times to come out of the downward spiral. Negativity propagates insanely quick.
Lily discussed something she tells her clients when they stumble and start to spiral down. She tells them to do 1 tiny act of power, like 50 sit ups or going for a walk, just something positive!
As I am dealing with so many things in my life which all seem to bear down on me, I took Lily’s advice. I normally do my laundry on Sunday, in a routine rut don’t ya know. Anyway, I felt so good last night after work, I felt I needed to do something productive, so I did my laundry. It made me giddy with delight that it is done. I know it sounds silly, but that empowered me! So much so, that I had a bowl of cheerios with raspberries for dinner. Yes, that was an act of power as well. Friday nights I usually get fast food for dinner. So I kept my calories (and everything ) in range! Everything is interconnected; the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual. That’s what I love about SP. It is not just about weight and fitness, it’s about life and how you choose to live it!
It is the little things, my friends! Tiny acts of POWER! Thank you Lily for that sublime advice.
Today my act of power is to empty 3 boxes in my living room and dispose of everything I don’t need, want, or doesn’t serve/inspire me any more. Who knows, perhaps I’ll do more?!
I have admitted to a lot today. Stuff that I have never admitted to anyone. Perhaps I feel I need to be more honest here amongst my family. Maybe I need to do this to take responsibility “Out Loud” as it were. *Shrugs* I don’t know…
Keep Moving forward!
Wheeeeeeeeee!
Ame