I have recently made the on-line acquaintance of  a man who is:

1. LOCAL! *HUZZAH*
2. I have an incredible amount in common with~ YES!
3. Is into spanking*HUZZAH* (and other stuff *chuckles*)
4. Is looking for a fourth for his poly family...very cool.

So far, on line we have hit it off beautifully. Hopefully we will have a chance to meet this week and see if the friendship transcends the 'net. We chat every night and we are both amazed at how much we really do have in common. It is almost scary(in a good way) There are of course, so many considerations, but I am cautiously excited about this.

In my last entry I wrote that I had had a rough month, both work wise and personally. I ranted on my work situation, but was not at a point that I could delve into my personal life. The hurt was too fresh.

In an earlier post I excitedly mentioned that my dark celt was back in my life. *chuckles*  He is faire family, I have known for about 8 years. I wrote  all about him first back in 2002, after my ex and I separated and eventually divorced.  Let me preface this with a small disclaimer. I know this man has problems, I have seen him drunker than a skunk and knows he likes to get stoned. Most of the times we saw each other was at faire. Drunk I am used to to seeing him, I have never really seen him high(Unless he was drunk as well and then I would not have known the difference.)  As of this entry, I have spent three times alone with him  not at faire. *Smiles softly* I will say now he was the very first man who ever made me feel desirable and wanted.

*shakes self*

Anyway...I saw him in March and had a wonderful time. He called me the Wednesday after Memorial day, said he was coming to town and would love to see me. I was so excited! He called me Friday night when he got in, asked if I was free Saturday and could we get together? I said yes and he said he would call Saturday and we would do something fun.I stayed home all day Saturday, ready to go, not eating 'cause I had no idea what he had planned. I waited and waited, nothing.

Finally at 6:30, knowing he wasn't going to call, I went and got a bite to eat. Much to my disgust and embarrassment, I allowed my emotions to get the best of me and  I ate a little more than I have eaten in a long while. Anyway, I finally get a call at 8:02 from him blithely apologizing for not calling, he and his friends had gotten busy. I was livid.  A simple call ANYTIME during the day saying, "yanno, we got caught up in stuff, could we make our visit for tomorrow?" would have been swell...*sighs* Then he says he and his friends were going to hang by the pool all day Sunday,  could I come at  7 and we'd have dinner? I said yes, then kicked myself after I hung up for not telling him exactly what I thought.(Color me wussy)

So I got there Sunday night, and the man is stoned out of his mind. He said we would eat and then hang out and visit for a while in his room. He doesn't introduce me to his friends. He gets dressed, we go to dinner and I felt as if I was alone...he was obviously not himself...He was not all there with me. Halfway through dinner as he looks as if he is going to fall asleep any second, he says he needs to go upstairs and take a nap cause he and his friends are going to the visit the strip. All righty then. Having lost what little appetite I had, we finished dinner, said goodbye and he had the audacity to tell ME to keep in touch.(I leave voice mails and text messages usually once a week most of which he does not answer...I just didn't want to lose him again) Have I heard from him since he left? Of course not. Do I plan on contacting him anytime soon? No.

I was devastated, hurt and angry. I felt lost. I see him so seldom, I felt cheated out of my time with him. It will be a long while before I see him again, longer now, as I don't know that I could go through this again. I love him...he is a dear friend,but I deserve, at the very least,  the tiniest bit of common courtesy. I felt as if I was with my ex again, it was a horrible feeling. It was a lesson learned, a difficult one at that. However, I have allowed myself to fret over it long enough and I am moving forward. Yea me?

Brightest Blessings,
Amethyst

It has been just about a month since my last blog. It has been an exhausting month, both work wise and personally. We went live with a new upgraded computer system the day after Memorial Day. It has been a whole week and it feels like the first day...over and over again. For myself I love the system, it does my my particular job so much easier. However, for the rest of the company it has bee a cluster...erm...frack. Things that should have been taken care over a month ago, such as transferring patients scheuled from the go live day onward, from the old system to the new system was never completed. Half out schedul was on MM and the other Intergy(Our new system). Consequently, we have been continually double booked, because we are only working from Intergy now. *sighs* Now were are in a desperate dash to finish the conversion of that particular problem.

Then there is the problem of not having had enough training...for anybody!  Most people were given a couple of days of overview training, but not  detailed training specific to their particular bailiwick! The main problem is the the company the created and sold us Intergy knows their product very well. However....they have no idea about our particular workflow. Since everything starts with scheduling and they have not been properly trained, it then moves down to the front desk who has to deal with the oh so unhappy patients who often times have to wait an hour or more for their exams, many of which were scheduled weeks, if not months before. So many patient have simply walked out that it is just mind blowing. Next in the flow comes the different modalities and all the different technologists who actually do the exams on said unhappy patients. *sighs* Often times still waiting until misunderstandings are (hopefully) cleared up before they FINALLY go into a room and have their exam. Next comes our clueless doctors who hate anything new, they in turn send reports to our over worked transcribers, who are still figuring out how to correct a report , let alone anything else. 

Beyond this, I have no clue. I have never dealt with the file room, billing and collections,so I have no idea how they are faring. I can only hope better than the rest of my poor beleaguered workmates.

I do have to admit the negativity and some just plain ugliness is wearing me down. I have had an issue with my work roommate for months and this has all just made her that more annoying. Lucky for me she goes on vacation on Thursday! My job is such, that for the most part, I leave it behind me when I walk out the doors. However the stress I feel from all of the goings on, lingers, in the form of moodiness, achy-ness, and sleeplessness. I have been one cranky Amethyst and I am soooo very tired of it.


Well, that is all I have the energy for today. Hopefully venting a bit will help . Time now for dinner, so I can get back to Laurell's new book! YES!!!

Bright Blessings,
Amethyst