Welcome to my site, Compatible, and thank you for the comment! Yesterday was bad mainly because I am not at Faire. The issue of my ex getting married is really a non-issue, it was just a speedbump in my journey.

The three years since he asked for the divorce have a been an exciting and glorious time for me. I have had my ups and downs, but I am discovering what a cool and interesting person I am, a person who was sublimated during my marriage. My marriage to and divorce from Michael was a mighty gift, it was the catalyst for my blossoming (if you will). I have arrived at a place where I don't NEED anyone in my life, and that feels so good. However, I WANT someone in my life, which is a whole other story! *LOL*

I do like who I am (and some days I even love me! *LOL* Those days are more and more frequent).

Yes, I have made mistakes, and yes, I have hurt people without meaning too, in my excavation of who I am.  I am so sorry for the pain I have caused people, but if I am honest, the mistakes I have made were learning experiences, and they are mistakes I have no intention of repeating.

I know who I am and what I want in life. This past year has made me that much more aware of this. Again, this past year is something I had to go through to get to this point.

So, speedbump overcome, I wish Michael and his new wife all the luck and happiness they can find.

I wish for the them the joy and peace I have found.

Bright Blessings,
Ame

I  have been in tears off and on all morning....Palm Springs Faire opens today and I am not there. Most of  my California Faire Family are there. This is breaking my heart.

As a side note, my ex is getting married tomorrow...will I EVER find someone of my own?

ame

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!

Good Morning! What a lovely day this is becoming. I had breakfast, which I made in my own little kitchen, I have my music on and I am so content.

I went grocery shopping yesterday and oh my goodness, it is expensive when you have NOTHING in the place. *LOL* I  have not been grocery shopping in so long, I was not aware of how expensive things have gotten. Luckily, some of what I bought, I won't have to buy again.(at least for some time!)

My living room is pretty well done as is my kitchen! (The maintenance guys came in yesterday and installed a new dishwasher. So I was able to really put my kitchen together.

The Window guy came yesterday also...The rat broke my grandmother's hummingbird music figurine. He just bungled his way in without any by~ your ~leave and didn't even apologize. *sighs* I know it is only a "thing", but my grandmother loved hummingbirds and I adored my grandma and DARN IT! *STOMPS*

Okay....*sighs* Today I work on finishing touches on the living room and kitchen then tomorrow it is all about the bedroom. THAT will take some time....I have so much stuff.

I may try and do some laundry today also...my first foray into my new complex...lucky for me everything I need is within yards of my building....the office, the laundry room, the mailbox and the pool.

Alrighty then. I am off! (but then we all knew that!) *GRINS*

Brightest Blessings,
Ame

I have begun the delightful process of settling in! Most of my things have been in storage for the last year, so it feels like Christmas, as I unwrap everything! I got my things out of layaway at Wal-Mart and have been having a ball putting my bathroom together. I bought myself a lovely little Welcome mat for my front door which tickles me to pieces. *smiles softly* It's the little things, you know?

I am already feeling so much more relaxed. It is such a joy! Now if I can get my sleep pattern back to normal, I'll be thrilled!

Okay....back to the adventure!

Brightest of Blessings,
Ame  

I am HOME. I am exhausted.....I wanna cry but can't. I need to SLEEP!

Which should come pretty quickly....just need to throw stuff on the bed to cover me up and then I crash. More later when I am a bit more alive.

ame

Alrighty then, despite the nasty stress and major panic attack, I have managed to lose 5 pounds my first week. YEA ME!!

Now if I can just get through this week, but this time next week, I SHOULD be in my new little nest.

*HUGS*
Ame

Happy Friday! *Deep sigh of relief* As the end of the week is here, I am amazed at quickly it flew by. I am tired, excited, and anxious. I haven't hadd a good nights sleep in weeks and have found myself becoming increasingly crankier as time progresses.

On an interesting side note, I am have had 4 very vivid, very real dreams in the last two weeks about people I know. I do not dream about people I know very often at all, in fact it is very rare. So this sudden bout of dreams has taken me quite by surprise. I have much to ponder in this aspect.

Well, it time to head for work! Have a great day.

OH! Have a WONDER*FULL weekend. Do something nice for yourself. *Smiles*

Bright Blessings,
Ame

5 more working days of riding the bus!!! *Deep sigh* 15 hours of my life a week, I can reclaim! YES! I reserved my truck this morning, so making small, sllooooooowwww progress. I have all these lovely ideas dancing in my head about how I want to decorate and make it my sanctuary....I WANT IT NOW! *STOMPS* DARN IT!

*LOL* Oh well, I guess I'll bide my time....not patiently...but I will bide my time....I suppose I SHOULD finish packing! *LOL*

Love, Light and Laughter,
Ame