I am still working through all those nasty issues that have plagued me forever. (I refer to my entry of Nov 6th) Letting go of old hurts(My ex-husband and my dark celt), my poisoned view of myself which includes the ugliness of negativity, self hate, self pity and outdated ways of thinking.
For the first time in forever I am truly looking forward to the new year. I wrote to someone tonight that the Goddess has been whispering to me for weeks now, that 2005 is going to be a much better, much happier year. But it is in MY Hands! This is the year of AME! No more negativity...no more self pity.
*smiles* I spent the day out by myself today. Getting reacquinted with myself. I spent time in my favorite bookstores. I bought a new deck of tarot cards. I found a goddess figure to put on my altar and a book that gives me ideas of how to draw closer to her in all her incarnations. I thought about the goals I want to set for myself and ways of TRULY working on them. I thought of ways to serve my friends and family, to see them happy and healthy.
This is going to be a good year!! I can feel it deep in my darkest places. The light has been rekindled....hope is shining like a beacon again.
Love, Light and Laughter,
Ame