January 5, 2004
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Well, another new year come and gone. Not my most favorite of holidays, I spent it with my soon to be new roommates watching movies. So, it was just another night like any other. I spent New Year's day witha migrine which woke me up and carried over to Friday. That made for a miserable day at work. It finally started disapating shortly after I got home.
The weekend was spent recouperating, I slept a lot Saturday and was on-line the rest of the time...What a surprise!! I spent most of the weekend chatting with my favorite people, getting to know new frinds in a chat room I was invited to join, and much to my delight, I have found a Top.
We have been talking for a couple of months now and we have so much in common. He is Pagan and enjoys Renaissance Faires among other things. I told him about my new chat room and I was in search of a Top and he asked if I would consider him. We talked for a long while and came to an understanding.
What I like most about him, is that he expects me to have my own opinions, likes and dislikes, He does not want me to change who I am for him, he wants to help me fulfill myself and who I wish to become. He does not want a door mat. He is encouraging me to explore my sexuality, my wants, needs and desires. He wants me to be happy and confident in who I am.
My trust in him is growing and while there is a that fear of getting hurt again...I have to put my heart out...again. One of these day it will find a home. I have to keep trying, even though part of me insists in sheltering my heart up and going on with life as it is now.
So, I forge ahead...filled with hope and a pinch of caution. This weekend I will post my goals for the year. This is the year of AMETHYST! *lol*
Love, Light and Laughter,
Amethyst