Well, how the heck did we get down to middle  end of the month..Good grief! It has been such a wonderful horrible few weeks and I am reeling from the emotions.

Our faire was bittersweet. We had an awesome site!! We looked soooo good, and got so many wonderful compliments from patrons and faire folk alike. There was alot of tension, which put a damper on things, but there were good things too.

My Celt was there and as handsome and wonderful as ever. I can admit that I love him and that's a good thing. Even knowing it will never go anywhere, he fills a hole in my heart and I am content.

I have made great strides in my personal development.  I am learning to honour my needs and desires and have joined a couple of groups that have helped me to know I am not as weird as I was led to believe. I have been working on letting my inner brat out and accepting the consequences of bratting. It is a joyous thing!

One of the joys that has come out of my group is that I have resumed writing. I have written of and on during my life and it has always been just for myself, but I was encouraged to pick it up again.  I have posted a couple of stories and surprisingly...to me...they have been fairly  well recieved.  So as a lark, I think I will share one of them  here also. Honour the need to reach beyond my comfort zone...*grin*

Love, Light and Laughter,

Amethyst

3 days and counting until our Faire. My heart is singing and time passes at a snail's pace. I had a wonderful Monday after a easy to forget weekend. Had a new friend over tonight as a get acquainted visit(Don't worry, called my ex who lives in my complex to let him know I was having company).

We were both so nervous it was funny and we decided we would get together on a night where there are no time constriants...I'll make dinner and "ply him with alcohol"(his words not mine). We are not in a hurry and there's no reason we can't take our time to get to know each other. We have surprisingly little in common butdo share the common need of companionship. He is 29...I'm robbing the cradle, but my goodness it is nice. I have just made all kinds of leaps and bounds in the last couple of days... I'm so proud of me!!!

Love, Light and Laughter,

Amethyst

Well, Pirate Fest had a couple of really good moments and the rest of it was sublimely horrible! I was hurt to the core of my being by someone who claimed to love me and claimed he was my friend. On Saturday night when I should have been having the time of my life with my faire family, I was crying myself to sleep. A trust has been broken and respect lost for someone I once held dear.

The one thing that helped me to hold on this past weekend, besides my Molly and Jenny, was the knowledge that tonight I was going to finally get to hug my Roxy!

Roxy, sister of my heart, I didn't know how much I loved you until I got to hold you! Thank you for being my friend and soul sister,and for introducing me to your dear friend ,*G*.  I still feel as if I have known her!) Thank you for everything, the time we spent tonight was worth everything I went through these last few weeks. I'll treasure it in my heart always.