Today would have been my 7th wedding anniversary. Why do I have such mixed feelings about it? I am so much happier now that I am divorced, I'm in such a better place. Yet, there is this part of my heart that mourns. Isn't that silly? I shouldn't care, but I do.

Wow, it has  been a while. I can't believe we are almost halfway through the month already. We are two weeks away from our next faire! Huzzah! I am so glad, I have been going through withdrawls! How I have missed all my Rogues and Scoundrels! We have three faires left this season. Our Faire here in Vegas promises to blow all the other faires away this year. Plans are underway and oh my goodness we are going to be THE encampment to visit!

 I have been doing a lot of pondering as of late. It seems that ever since I have put in my profiles that I am a BBW, I am Imed every night by at least two guys. What I don't understand is thatI have always been a BBW and until I met and married and divorced my Ex-husband, men never exhibited any interest in me. (I figured he didn't want me, why would anyone else).

I am blown away by the interest shown now. It is very heady stuff for someone who thought herself fat and ugly. They like my pictures and call me sexy and beautiful... Oh my! It is hard to believe after all this time that according to them anyway, I'm not how I see myself. LOL, in fact I had a friend of mine threaten me one time last week as I negated a comment he made about my being beautiful. He said that that was the fastest way to end up over his knee than anything else I could do or say. Darn if he didn't mean it!

So I guess what I'm wondering is, what's different now? How have I changed so that suddenly(it seems anyway) I have this incredible amount of attention. I look the same...I am inherently the same person I have always been. Please don't get me wrong, I am enjoying it! And i have met some very nice men! I'm just curious. 

Love, Light and Laughter,

Amethyst

Okay...all is good. He got very cold feet at the thought of meeting me as well as a bunch of my rogue friends...so we met tonight...I really like him...I think we will be great friends and if more develops...that would be nice too. Very tired...adrenilin wearing off...more later!

Love, Light and Laughter,

Amethyst