Another Tuesday draws to a close, and it has been a very meditative day. Last night I was participating in a sacred silence during my evening ritual, (I was celebrating and contemplating the network of the universe and contemplating and wondering at my own part within it). Sacred silence is difficult for me because I have a hard time turning off the excess noise in my head. I want to arrive at a point where I can hear the divine within me and actually have a dialogue with my soul teacher (if I can ever find her/him). I understand there is much learning that can come of this.

I’m sorry, I’m rambling. My point here is I was made to understand that in all my growing and learning and trying…I am trying too hard. I am not being myself. I asked who I am and I was told that is my most current lesson. Does that make sense?

I know that in my life in general(my  intimate life specifically) I am running as fast as I can to get to where I think I should be and maybe behaving in a way that is contrary to who I truly am. I may be rushing things, perhaps I need to slow down, catch my breath and notice the scenery that is around me. Hmmmmm…. 

It’s been on my mind all day and I’m not sure I’m any closer to an answer than I was last night, but I guess I don’t HAVE to have the answer right this minute.

Have a great evening!

Brightest Blessings, Friends of my heart.
Amethyst

My Sister of my heart, Cissy, sent this to me...it is very Cool.

Grab life and don't let go!!!

George Carlin's View on Aging

 Do you realize that the only time in
 our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? 

 If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited
 about aging that you think in fractions." How old
 are you?" "I'm four and a half!"

 You're never thirty-six and a half.  You're four and a half, going on five!
 That's the key.
 
 You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back.
 You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.
 "How old are you?" "I'm gonna be 16!" You could be 13,
 but hey, you're gonna be 16!
 
 And then the greatest day of your life . . . you
 become 21.
 
 Even the words sound like a ceremony . . . YOU
 BECOME 21| YESSSS!!!
 
 But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there?
 Makes you  sound like bad milk. He TURNED; we had to throw
 him out. There's no fun now, you're just a sour-dumpling.
 What's wrong? What's changed?
 
 You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40.
 
 Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away.
 Before you know it,  you REACH 50 . . . and your dreams are gone.
 
 But wait!!! You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would!
 
 So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and
 MAKE it to 60.
 
 You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70!
 After that  it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT Wednesday!
 
 You get into your 80s and every day is a complete
 cycle; you HIT lunch;you TURN 4:30; you REACH bedtime.
 
 And it doesn't end there. Into the 90s, you start
 going backwards; "I was JUST 92."
 
 Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over
 100, you become  a little kid again. "I'm 100 and a half!"
 May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!
 
 HOW TO STAY YOUNG
 1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight
 and height. Let the doctor worry about them.
 That is why you pay him/her.
 
 2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull
 you down.
 
 3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer,
 crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle.
 "An idle mind is the devil's workshop."
 And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
 
 4. Enjoy the simple things.
 
 5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you
 gasp for breath.
 
 6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on.
 The only person who is with us our entire life,
 is ourselves.  Be ALIVE while you are alive.
 
 7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether
 it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies,
whatever.Your home is your refuge.
 
 8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve
 it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond
 what you can improve, get help.
 
 9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the
 mall, to the next county,  to a foreign country, 
 but NOT to where the guilt is.
 
 10. Tell the people you love that you love them,
 at every opportunity.
 
 AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
 
 Life is not measured by the number of breaths we
 take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Well, here is my list of goals for the New Year. With the exception of number 1, these are in no particular order. Number one is the path by which I can accomplish the other goals on my journey!

1. First and foremost...Turn off the TV!  I have fallen back into habit of having it on for the noise without really watching it, although I am planted in front of it. This is SUCH a waste of time! There is so much I could and would be doing, if I limited my TV viewing to the one or two shows I really want to see.

2. Focus on developing the beauty inside and worry less about my lack of beauty outside

3. Find a subject of interest, explore and study it...I need to learn new things!

4. I am ready (once again…kinda got side tracked last year) for further studies in Wicca and Paganism in general. I feel the need to pick up again, devote significant time and attention so that I may gain more knowledge and experience. I need to develop the confidence in myself, that I have the power inside to change my life and myself. I believe other people have the power, I know some of my friends do...I have been told I have the power, but self doubt is an insidious unwanted guest. I need to learn to trust myself and look inside for the truth I seek.

5. I will cherish my friends! (This is the easiest!)

6. I will cherish myself!  (This is the hardest!)

7. Stop worrying about finding love in my life and learn to be comfortable with my own company.

So there it is, such as it is. May I accomplish more of what I set out to do this year, than I did last year. Although, there was tremendous growth and self awakening last year…that’s why they call it growing pains…there is growth through pain.

Much love and Brightest Blessings,

Amethyst

 This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy. Susan Polis Schutz

 A Marvelous Monday it has been!

 I hope everyone's Monday was great! I have been pondering my goals for the new year and have pretty much firmed them up. A couple from last year are making an appearance again(some got thrown out the window with the turmoil that was my life last year! This year is different and better!!). Some are new and I am really excited! The future is bright. My path is making itself clear and I am not alone. Life is good!

Love, Light and Laughter,
Amethyst

One of my soul friends, Cissy,  has plans underway for my birthday party next month. Jack’s Irish Pub in the Palace Station on February 22, 2003.  How I wish my Xanga family could be there to help me celebrate my coming into my own! {sighs}

  HAPPY MONDAY!!!!!

Gifts I am grateful for each day:

*The sun which greets me each morning;
*The ducks I say good morning to each day, that visits the wash near my apartment;
*The tiny Latino lady that I see at my bus stop each morning who always has a smile and something nice to say;   
*The curmudgeonly old bus driver on Mondays, who makes me appreciate my other bus  drivers so much more;
* Dread (the rogue)……
*Roxy (Sister of my heart)...
*The woman who walks her dog each morning and stops to talk with me and lets me visit with her four legged companion, as I wait for my bus;
*The crisp cool wind, that clears the noxiousness from the blue skies;
*My Xanga Family;
*Colours;
*My Wednesday, Thursday and Friday bus driver who calls me beautiful every morning;
*Cissy;
*My cozy little apartment;
*The blessing and  joy of seeking my own spiritual path;
*My heart, which has the amazing ability to expand infinitely to embrace all who come within its circle;
*Shadow….
*Music;
*My job;
*My wonderful Books;
*Hornsby….
*Stephin and Garry…
*My Life;
*My legs, which are strong and carry me throughout my day on my journey;
*My Faire Family;
*The stars which glitter as jewels on black velvet;
*The moon which graces the night sky and watches over me as I sleep.

Brightest Blessings,
Amethyst

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"Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told, 'I'm with you kid. Let's go.' "
Maya Angelou (1928-)

 A very Happy Friday to all my dear friends! I trust this will be a wonder*full weekend and once again I urge you all to take care of yourselves and be certain to do at least one thing that makes you happy!!

Wow, first weekend of a bright new year…cool beans!

 *does happy dance around office!*

 Warm Fuzzies and Brightest Blessings,

Amethyst

 If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater.
(Unknown)

Turbulence is life force. It is opportunity. Let's love turbulence and use it for change.

Ramsay Clark

The year is off to a beautiful start and it is with a joy*full heart that I embrace my future. I am working on goals for my new year and am finding anticipation and satisfaction in doing something positive for myself. I gave myself until  new years eve to wallow in self pity and doubt and dwell over all the negative that occurred in the last year. I shed it at the stroke of midnight like a snake sheds its skin and am all bright and shiny,  ready to go forward with my life.

Love and Brightest of Blessings in this New Year,
Amethyst