January 7, 2003

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  Another Tuesday draws to a close, and it has been a very meditative day. Last night I was participating in a sacred silence during my evening ritual, (I was celebrating and contemplating the network of the universe and contemplating and wondering at my own part within it). Sacred silence is difficult for me because I have a hard time turning off the excess noise in my head. I want to arrive at a point where I can hear the divine within me and actually have a dialogue with my soul teacher (if I can ever find her/him). I understand there is much learning that can come of this.

  
  

  I’m sorry, I’m rambling. My point here is I was made to understand that in all my growing and learning and trying…I am trying too hard. I am not being myself. I asked who I am and I was told that is my most current lesson. Does that make sense?

  
  

  I know that in my life in general(my  intimate life specifically) I am running as fast as I can to get to where I think I should be and maybe behaving in a way that is contrary to who I truly am. I may be rushing things, perhaps I need to slow down, catch my breath and notice the scenery that is around me. Hmmmmm…. 

  
  

  It’s been on my mind all day and I’m not sure I’m any closer to an answer than I was last night, but I guess I don’t HAVE to have the answer right this minute.

  
  

  Have a great evening!

  
  

  Brightest Blessings, Friends of my heart.
  Amethyst

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