Month: December 2002

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    The Happiest of New Years to all my dear friends. It’s going to be a good year…

  • I am feeling so very wicked and extremely naughty today….Should make for an interesting tomorrow…cause I’m going to get feeling wickeder and naughtier as the day and evening progresses…


    I feel like purrrring…and grrrowling...and rubbing figure eights around someone...

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    Well, Happy Friday all you dear people. I trust that you will all have a marvelous weekend and of course, be sure to do at least one thing that makes YOU happy!!!


    If I am a very good girl today, tomorrow I will be doing something which should make me very happy.  Oh my, I can’t wait. The anticipation is killing me and I feel as if I’m coming out of my skin. My vivid mind is going into overtime imaging the possibilities.  


     

    Love, Light and Laughter,
    Amethyst

  • Ha! Told ya so....scoff if you will...look in the mirror you olde scalawag you, you'll find him! {Grins}


    And Yes!! He is wise and smart and has a big heart and nothing YOU say will ever convince me otherwise....So There!!!!

  • It is amazing to me that someone I have never met is as dear to me as friends I see every day. He is a wise teacher with the heart of a warrior poet (Though he would scoff at me for saying such a thing.) It is true though, friend of my heart and I love you.


    Truth is the most powerful of allies and it can be scary facing it full on. I have been hiding from the truth for months(Years if I am totally honest) instead of fully embracing it. Yet, despite the thick wall that I have built around my heart from the truth, some has slipped in through the chinks of said wall and it is time to face it and allow the healing to truly begin.


    As long as I have my friends, my heart will sing. I know now I am never truly alone...my heart has told me this from the start, but my mind lies and tells me otherwise. I need to learn to trust my heart! Thank you, my favorite scoundrel...the  future shines before me and my heart is bright with the joy of the adventure.

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    How dare he call to wish me a happy holiday and flaunt the fact that he has someone to spend this holiday with?! This my favorite holiday and I have always spent it with loved ones. This is the first Christmas where I’ll be all by myself and the pain is almost more than I can bear. I have always heard about how lonely and pain filled this holiday can be for people and I always felt so bad for those who had no one to spend this holiday with.  This is the first time in my entire life I will not be with anyone for Christmas.  I can’t wait until the holidays are over.


    I wish for all  you dear people a very happy Christmas, filled with joy and warmth and the love of your families and friends. Brightest of Blessings and all my love to you.


     

    Amethyst


  • All I want for Christmas is my own computer!!!!!


    I hate having to sneak at work (shhhhh!) I feel as if I am missing out on so much. I want all my friends to know I have not forgotten you and you are always in my heart and in my thoughts. I often wonder how everyone is faring. I miss dear Cat, Roxy, Zera, and my own darling Dread. I want to get to know Chellief, Moonbeam, Fredpie and all the other wonderful people who have so serendipitously visited my own little corner of Xanga better!


    I hope everyone’s week is going well and preparations for the holidays are well underway. It is finally COLD here (for Las Vegas) and acting as December ought to be acting! I went to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra Saturday night and it rendered me speechless. They were awesome! I finally decided to put Christmas up in my little apartment, even though I had planned to skip the holiday altogether. I’m glad I did.


    I just found out my dad was supposed to have surgery and during the pre-op work-up, they found out he has a damaged heart. I can’t lose him too, not now. So we are keeping the good thoughts and choosing to focus on the good. I am sending constant thoughts of healing white light to him and in my own way, doing what I can.


     


    Love, Light, and Laughter,
    Amethyst

  •  I was telling a co-worker about some old Christmas cartoons from the 1930s and 1940s, which were shown on the cartoon network last night. There was one in particular that was breathtakingly beautiful. Created just before World War II began, it was called “Peace on Earth”. The long and short of it was that mankind had wiped itself out due to war and a grandfather squirrel was explaining to his grandchildren what “men” were; they had asked because of the line “Peace on earth, goodwill to men.”  I know it sounds silly, but it was beautifully done and very thought provoking. It must have been just as thought provoking that first Christmas of World War II.

    My friend and I then turned the discussion to the instability of our lives right now, with all the conflicts that are haunting us. She mentioned how much she hates watching the news, how unsettling it is.  It’s frightening to contemplate how easily it would be to wipe out mankind today.


     It would be so easy to be incapacitated with fear, considering everything that is going on today. I, for one, choose not to watch the news on any regular basis or read the newspaper for that matter. That is not to say that I am not totally aware of what is going on in the world, I am most decidedly aware of things in our world. My head is not buried in the sand. I do wish that news would focus as much on good things as well as the not so good. I believe we can lose sight of the fact that good does happen in our world, but people are not as likely to share news of the good things, the nice things.


     I have thought a lot about this conversation today. I have always enjoyed my life, but not been as active in my own life as I could have. I have had a good life, but there have been times I have just kind of watched it swirl by. Since my ex-husband asked for the divorce in February, I have become a much more active participant in my own life and with the coming of the New Year, I am jumping into my new life with both feet!


    I choose to live my life to its succulent fullest, for no one knows what tomorrow will bring. I embrace the uncertainty and the adventure. I now PLAY hard and LOVE fiercely. I tell my family and friends how much they mean to me as often as I can (without driving them crazy!) and I won’t be afraid anymore! I have always been one to put my heart on the line, I have always risked the hurt, but now it is even more important for me to do so! I am alive and happy and full of light, love and laughter! This is an exciting time and I do so look forward to all I can throw my arms around!


  • Excerpt from my new theme song...


     


    I’m moving on...at last I can see...life has been patiently waiting for me....and I know there’s no guarantee, but I’m not alone. 


    There comes  a time in everyone’s life when all you can see are the years passing by, and I have made up my mind that those days are gone...


    From “I’m Moving On” by Rascal Flatts