Never mind about the guy from match.com...He was a not what i thought he was...found this out just from his e-mail...eeewww! Oh well, onward and upward!

Love, light and laughter,
Amethyst

Oh my goodness it is so hot! It is 10:30 pm and 97 degrees out...ugh! I can't wait for October. Oh well, I hope everyone is doing well this summer!

My adventures continue...Joined match.com on Sunday and  had a response on Tuesday...Cool! This could be fun! I promise I will be very careful if and when the time comes to meet anyone! I may be naive, but I am not stupid!

Love laughter and Bright Blessings!
Amethyst

Okay, I have had enough of feeling sorry for myself! Tonight I begin to reinvent myself. Tonight, I begin to learn who I am now, and what I want out of life. I accept who I am now and work towards selflove and acceptance and growth! No more stagnating...no  more wallowing...This has got to stop!

I, Amethyst Star am a Wild and Succulent Woman!
This is a Natural, Good and Sacred Truth!

I live a Wild and Succulent Life.
I am Loveable and Desirable.

I Love, Live and Laugh Fully and Totally!

Huzzah for new beginnings and waking up to life!

Brightest of Blessings!
Amethyst

I'm Baaaaack! (sort of)...I have my computer at home...Finally! But it needs a massive overhaul. I was going to back up all my stuff tonight, but my "A" drive won't work(damn the man...er...drive!) So I think I'm going to lose everything! I see a massive printing job ahead of me!

Sooo....How is everyone? Gosh, I've missed you all! I feel as if I have missed so very much! I have a ton of back reading to do to catch up on everyone.  I look forward to catching up, there is a huge hole in my heart and life I need to fill up with old (and new) friends. I have been so lonely!

A quick catch-up on my life(such as it is...): Michael has yet to file for the divorce. He told me Monday he will probably file the middle of the month, and it will be finalized a couple of days after that. I have gotten on with my life (more on that later...), but the hurt runs deep and I am trying so hard to work my way through it. I swore early on, that I didn't want another relationship...no more commitment. I LIED!

After faire and tasting some of what I have been missing my whole adult life, I want to find someone I can spend my life with and who will truly love me( In every way). I am having to deal with being alone and I am not handling it well. Because of my time and adventures at faire, the loneliness is overwhelming. Sometimes the silence is so loud, I want to scream. However, I made some wonderful friends at Corona and one of them I keep in touch with daily. Perhaps I'll tell you about him and his tribe later. He figures in to some of the changes that are going on in my life. I'll say this now, tho...he makes me feel desirable, sensual, almost pretty (okay, he calls me gorgeous and I almost believe him!) Michael never, ever made me feel this way. I'm going to see my friend  for his birthday in Long Beach in a couple of weeks and I can't wait!

Speaking of Michael, he is still with the woman he was friends(?) with before he asked me for the divorce.(I 'm sure she is a big reason he left me...aside from the fact that he was tired of me nagging him about his drinking). Did I mention she caught my wedding bouquet? She and her ex-husband were friends of ours. I still talk with her ex...we are friends still...yes..it is a wee bit strange. There is a running joke between one of my other friends and myself(he is also tied into the strangeness that is my life) that we would have our own episode of "Jerry Springer". You laugh...if you only knew!!

I hit my 13th year in my job this month...I love my new apartment...I'm giving up my car 'cause I can't afford it...I have another faire coming up in 3 weeks after I visit my friend in Big Bear...and another one 2 weeks after that in Long Beach where I am going to spend my vacation...with my friend.

Okay...enuf...Don't want to take a chance of the computer freezing on me. I love you guys and have missed you so much. Please drop by and say hi...again, can't wait to catch up with everyone.

Love, Light and Laughter,
Amethyst

Oh Yeah...I've lost over 30 pounds!