The moon was full and bright as I drove home last night from work...It was only 5:20ish but it was high enough for me to see her in all her glory...guess what I did...I took a deep breath....and HOWLED! Yes, I did and it was awesome!! The looks I got from the cars around me were priceless and I just grinned and pointed to Lady Luna. Then I laughed until I cried (which doesn't take much for me these days...The crying part, I mean). It felt so good to howl like that! I will do it again tonight!

2 days and counting and I'm outta here! I cannot wait(but have to wait.) I can hardly stand looking at him right now...but he is needed to finish packing, so I tolerate him.

Happy Full Moon and Brightest of Blessings!
Amethyst

he has been seeing her all along. he lied to me...everything was a lie. he told me saturday that he wasn't sleeping with her...his ex-wife cheated on him and he couldn't do that to me...i don't believe him...he says he still loves me on some level...now i hurt...

3 days and counting!

Hello and Happy Monday. As you can see, I am down to the wire and time can't fly fast enough! Any other time time would be winging by because I had nothing to look forward to, but now of course, as I await the most exciting day (The day I begin my new and improved Life) it is crawling by at a snails pace! But that is alright , because I have plenty to do!

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend...I did!! Here is to a great week!

Love, Hugz and warm fuzzies,
Amethyst

I had the BEST time Friday night. It more than made up for my birthday on Tuesday. I was surrounded by some of my favorite people and I felt loved and cared for and special! I am a truly blessed woman, the only way it could have been better, is if you all had been there too! (I wish there was a way we could all get together and see each other and give real  hugs and share loud, from the gut laughter!) 

Last night I went out with my friends to a little irish pub in Palace Station and stayed until 1:00 am listening to the house band "The Wild Celts" and watching most of my rogues in thier kilts having a mighty fine time. Michael was drunk (surprise!) and flirting with anything in a skirt...but I did not care! I was having too much fun with the rest of the group. I look forward to doing some flirting of my own, but will have good taste to wait until I am in my own apartment.

 BTW, he is seeing someone now. I know her (So much for friendship!) and have lost any respect I might have had for her. She called him the day after he told me he wanted the divorce and asked him to go away for the weekend....she was the one he was with when he came home at 10:15 am  on my birthday and she was the one waiting to take him to school...she is who he is going out with tonight and will probably be gone all night. Do I care? Not really...do I think it is classless and tacky...you bet I do!

Anyway...I have had a wonderful weekend and I am getting closer to my new life.  Huzzah!

Love and Bright Blessings,
Amethyst

HUZZAH FOR FRIDAY!!!

1 week from today I get the keys to my new apartment! It is going to be a very long week.  But I have lots to do(read:packing) so hopefully the time will go quickly.

I wish everyone a happy weekend and as always, do at least one thing that makes YOU happy this weekend!

Bright Blessings,
Amethyst

Okay, the countdown has begun in earnest and I can not wait to get out of this apartment and get Michael out of my personal life. Yesterday was the final straw and now time is crawling on! I wish I had had the courage to do this a long time ago, but I have always been one to learn my lessons the hard way!

Today, my workmates had a party for me and I have Friday night's dinner party to look forward to also. My sister told me, for this year to pretend my birthday is on Friday, but I just said I will be celebrating this birthday all year, because it is my watershed year. This is my coming out year(so to speak), my debut into my new life! It can only get better from here!

Love and very Brightest of Blessings,
Amethyst

Dearest Goddess brightly shining,
Please forgive me as I'm crying.
I come to you with grateful heart
For my new life which now can start.

I finally received confirmation on my apartment today. The best Birthday present I could receive.

As I was logging on, Michael came waltzing in...10:15ish my time.I broke down, I had been so worried. I think he is lying to me as to where he was...I don't care where he was, I truly don't. I care that he didn't let me know he was okay. Perhaps, it is not my right to know he is okay...but I'm sorry, common courtesy....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

Now, I can get on with my day!

Amethyst

I am not going to let Michael ruin my birthday! I have looked forward to today for months and I will be darned if his not coming home at all last night(he is still not here) will ruin my day.

I talk big...I really feel like crying...Birthdays were always such a celebration in my family. And I have looked forward to this one so much. I hate being alone on my birthday.

Perhaps I need to take myself out...a nice lunch and a movie...go feed the ducks and swans at Sunset park...or not...

Okay, pity party over...Enough is enough! I will not allow him to run my day!

I'm going to take a long hot shower, give myself a facial, get dressed, go out and face this day with a smile on my face...now if I can just get the smile to reach my heart!

Amethyst

Happy Monday! It is a beautiful morning out and I for one am looking forward to this week!  I am off work tomorrow to Celebrate and figure today will be rather longish! I should hear for certain about my apartment today! Huzzah.

Have a wonderful day, everyone.

Bright Blessings,

Amethyst

Well, here I am...less than two weeks away from moving and as of right now...well, lets just say the really nice apartment lost me! They piddled around and Wednesday when I called to see if I had the apartment they told I need another form! AARRGGHH! They couldn't have told me Sunday when I turned in the application????? They knew my situation! SO...I get the form filled out, Denise(present land lady) was wonderful, faxed it in Thursday morning, I called the other place and told them it was coming. They said they would "re-consider" my application after receiving the form. I don't hear from them all morning or early afternoon...how long does it take to say yea or nay? I call at a quarter to three, and gee, thay say they haven't recieved it yet. They could have called me!!! I call Denise, she said she faxed it right after I got off the phone with her.  I call 15 minutes later...I'm sorry we don't see it...

I see red and decide to call my second choice. Caroline (At the 2nd place) has been so sweet, she called me a couple of times to see how I was doing and to see if there was anything she could do to make my decision easier...she courted me! Anyway, I called her and she had just left a voice mail at home telling me about a new special. She was so excited to hear from me and the special was one I could not turn down!! $199 move in and they dropped the price of the two bedroom from $630 to $595. Hello!!! So I took her my app. on Friday(and gee, she recieved the form from Denise as soon as I asked Denise to send it! Hmmmm...) and it is pretty much a done deal...just have to do the red tape...credit check and all that...she said I pretty much have the apartment regardless and my neighbor is a lovely Brazilian woman named Maria that I would just love! I have a truck reserved and I have put an SOS out to all my Rogues and Klingons for moving help, which of course I will repay with food and drink! We will see!

So, here I am, waiting for final approval and two days away from the start of my own personal new year which I am looking forward with glee! I got my very own cell phone yesterday (had them run a credit check just for giggles to see how much of a deposit I would have to put down, I have such poor credit {sigh} ) KNOCK ME OVER WITH A FEATHER!!!!!! Damn the man! (To quote my Dear Dread) They approved me! So, I now have a cell phone! Cool.

So, there we are, caught up for the most part...More tomorrow! Same Bat time...Same Bat channel! (Chuckle, chuckle, GRIN!)

Bright Blessings,

Amethyst