Month: January 2002

  • I got this from one of the groups I belong to on Yahoo, and it is lovely. Very apropo for the new year!


    http://www.dailymotivator.com/memberflash/rightnow.html


     


    Well, I have cut down quite a bit on the amount TV I watch. Tonight I don't plan on turning it on at all. I am going to get my Tarot cards out and re-acquaint myself with them, then I 'm going to read my newest copy of "Sage Woman" {giggles with delight!}. Thus far, with the exception of my back, the year is off to a great start!


    ...Dear Roxy...Sister of my Heart, I'm so glad you are settling in your new home. You are in my heart and thoughts daily.


    Love and Brightest of Blessings,


    Amethyst

  • Well, I promised Dread that I would list my goals for the new year and today I make a start at the list. With the exception of number 1, these are in no particular order. Number one is the path by which I can accomplish the other goals on my journey!


    1. First and foremost...Turn off the TV!  I have fallen into my husband's habit of having it on for the noise without really watching it, although I am planted in front of it. This is SUCH a waste of time! There is so much I could and would be doing, if I limited my TV viewing to the one or two shows I really want to see.


    2. Pay more attention( play, cuddle, and just be with)  to my cats. They are always there for me(sometimes whether I want them there or not!) The ask so little of me and I get so much from them...I need to have more quality time with them!


    3. Get outside more...go to the park...take day trips to the surrounding parks and recs spots here and around Vegas. I spend entirely too much time inside and in order to be more involved with nature I need to be out actively being IN Nature.


    4. Find a class of interest and take it...I am in a rut and I need to expand my comfort zone. Whether it is in an actual classroom, on line, or with a study group, I need to learn new things!


    5. I am ready for further studies in Wicca and Paganism in general. I feel the need to pick up again and possibly find a teacher or a group so that I may gain more knowledge and experience. I need to develop the confidence in myself, that I have the power inside to change my life and myself. I believe other people have the power, I know some of my friends do...I have been told I have the power, but self doubt is an insidious unwanted guest. I need to learn totrust myself and look inside for the truth I seek.


    6. Be more understanding of my husband and support him more as he follows through on school. (He has a grade point average after a year and a half of 3.75) I am proud of him but I worry soooo much about finances! I will attempt to not worry so much about money and be more enthusiastic about all he shares with me.


    7. I will continue to cherish my friends! (This is the easiest!)


    8. I will learn to cherish myself!  (This is the hardest!)


    Well, that is enough for now...my back is still hurting me and I can feel myself getting loopy from the meds I was given.  So, there is the major list of goals.


    I will be busy this year, especially now that Bell is back in my life. We had a 2 1/2 hour talk last night and it was as if we had never parted. I talked to her son and one daughter and my time sense is all messed up, becuase I still think of them as little children, like the last time I saw them. He has such a deep voice and his mothers skewed sense of humor, and she was just as loving and charming as I remember her as a little girl. I am still thrilled to tears and hopefully will get to see her in March! I can't wait to actually see her and hug her again...it's been too long.


    Much love and Brightest Blessings,


    Amethyst

  • Happiest of New Years!

  • Well, this has been a tremendous start to the new year! (Pain in the back not-withstanding!) Miracles do happen and I for one am so very grateful to the Lord and Lady for this particular miracle.


    Longish story: Best friend since high school...she and her family "adopt" me when I join the Mormon church. We are inseperable. She gets married, has a family of lovely children. In 1991 I find out that her husband is nothing less than a monster and she begins the ardous task of leaving him and rebuilding her life...during this time, she is there for me when my mama dies and helps me get into a new home and then facts come out about her family that are also horrendous. Somehow due to a miscommunication between the two of us, she disappears from my life. She thinks I have abandoned her and I , well I'm not sure what I think...I finally decide that I am from a part of her life that she doesn't want to remember.


    I am beside myself, I have no idea what happened to her, or the children. I try everything short of hiring a private detective to see if I can find her. I finally give up, all the while keeping her in my heart abd thoughts. Then the dreams start...vivid, real life dreams wherein I find her...in unusual places, but I find her. I have so many I lose count, but in a small way, deep in my heart, they keep my hope alive.


    I had one of those dreams last week. The most vivid yet, and all her girls were in the dream, her son was not. The one daughter I always considered my "baby" gave me a hug and fell asleep on my chest, just like she did when she was tiny. (She is 18 now!)


    This past Sat. I checked the Classmates site as I do every once in a while to see if may be she signed up...just a long shot...She was there!!! Oh my goodness!!! I e-mailed her...she e-mailed me back! Both of  us were a little hesitant at first, but we warmed up quickly enough. It was remarkable...but the most amazing thing was yet to come. I told her my spiritual path had led me on a different journey than the one I was on when we last spoke...I told her I was on the Pagan Path and held my breath to see her reaction!


    Yesterday I found out that she chose that path also! I was dumbfounded...but I don't think I should have been! She called me this morning and we talked and talked...almost made me late for work. We actually have chosen the same path!


    10 long, anxious, lonely years! I feel this was supposed to happen. For whatever reason, we needed this time apart and the Universe brought us back together again. It was not coincidence. There was a purpose for this and I think as we get re-acquainted, we will know why. But in the meantime, what an awesome way to begin the New Year. May the rest of our year be as good!


    Love and Brightest of Blessings,


    Amethyst

  • I didn't plan on spending New Years alone, let alone in pain. This will be short as my lower back is in extreme pain and my meds should be kicking in anytime now. Tears and self pity were NOT on the menu for tonight. I am missing a party with my friends and hubby (whom I had hoped would have stayed home with me, but I told him if he wanted to go to the party, he should...he did)  I am feeling a wee bit sorry for myself right now! I wonder how much of that is medications.


    I do have a list of goals which I will share, but only after I can sit for more than 3 or 4 minutes.


    In the meantime, Happy New Year to all my friends and loved ones. May this be a better year, a healthier year and a happier year.


     


    Love and Brightest of Blessings,


    Amethsyt