January 23, 2002
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The month keeps speeding by and I'm running to keep up with it. I don't want to miss anything! My goals for the new year progress beautifully(although turning off the TV is harder than I thought it would be...can't figure out why, even now everything is mostly reruns!
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I have been pondering my marriage as of late. Michael and I struggle with our relationship...well, only one facet really...his drinking. We have so much at stake...not the least of which is his degree he is working so hard to earn. I am so proud of him...he has a 3.75 grade point average and his teachers love him! He only (Still?) has two years to go!
He says he sees himself in a destructive pattern and he wants to change and I believe him. I know it takes time and I'm willing to give it to him, but at time it is so hard and I wonder if it is worth the heartache. I did not wait my whole adult life to get married (I was 36), just to have it end in divorce 5 sort years later. But how long is long enough?
Almost everything else is fine. Work is going well as I face almost thirteen years at my job. Our Pirate group is going really well and I must admit I am already looking forward for the Faire season to begin!(March 22, 23, 24 is Palm Springs...First Faire of the season...Huzzah!!)
I am studying more and more and I'm ready to further my understanding of Wicca and in order to do that, I need to know myself better. Thanks to Shadow-Dancer for the link I found on his site. He put it up for the astral travel course, but I am going to take the on-line course about self-discovery. It sounds interesting, and if I do well with this course and like the way it is presented, I will try the astral class.(I'm not quite ready to deliberately leave my body right now...too much to learn here IN my body!)
I found my bestest friend after 10 years of wondering if she was dead or alive(She alive and kicking...thank the Goddess!)
I still find joy in the simple(and not-so-simple) things in life and for all the problems I may have in my life...there is so much more that is right!
Love and Brightest of Blessings,
Amethyst
Comments (2)
Your blog touched me so much. How long is long enough? Good question. But I suppose if you love someone....as long as it takes, as long as they are trying. I was in a marriage that split due to alcohol...a very hard path to walk with someone...I was willing to stand beside him as long as it took....but he gave up and I knew I could not walk the path for him. Your hunnie sounds like he is willing...so how long??? As long as he is willing. Love and light to you sweet sister!
oh my....
strength, wisdom and power to thee.
sail on... sail on!!!
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