Okay...Enough is Enough! OUT Damned Cold! Out I Say!

Ahem...I'm missing two days of work, nothing is touching this monster, I'm tired of being sick!(I truly feel tired and whiny just like a little girl! I wish I could call my mom!)

Darling Cat, I'm so sorry to hear about Pud. You feel about your little ferrets like I feel about my cats. Losing one is almost as devestating as losing a human! Take time to grieve, just as you would for any dear friend. Please don't feel guilty! You didn't know! ~Don't forget that you are loved and if you need to talk or vent you have a place to come to!~

Amethyst

Okay...whoever gave me this lovely COLD can take it back! I won't think any less of you and would love you to death if you TAKE IT BACK! I DON"T have time to be sick, especially nowwwww, I have too many things to do, places to go, people to see, and Holidays to get ready forrrr(Stamps foot and puts on booboo face! Would you like a little whine with your cheese?)   

Really though, this just sucks! It seems like every year for the holidays I get sick...well at least it is early and things really don't start happening until this weekend. Colds generally last 5-7 days and with my arsenal of vitamin C, Zinc and Echinecea, I should be right as rain in a few days!

Happy Tuesday and Bright Blessings,

Amethsyt

Ahhhh....the perfect Saturday. Dark, cold, and rainy! I should have been cleaning today, but I couldn't waste the perfect day! Curled up on my bed with both my cats sleeping on and beside me at any given moment, good movies and an open window to listen to the rain fall. Tonight, my hubby is going to make chili and we will curl up together(with the cats!) and watch more good movies, eat popcorn and drink hot chocolate! Winter has arrived and we will be down in the thirties tonight and only up to about fifty-five tomorrow! I LOVE this time of year!

Happy Weekend everyone and do something that makes you happy!!

Love and Brightest of Blessings,

Amethyst

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!  BRIGHT BLESSINGS TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND YOUR FAMILIES ON THIS BEAUTIFUL AUTUMN DAY.

WITH MUCH LOVE,

AMETHYST

Bought my turkey yesterday and everything to go with it! Hit Wal-mart and bought an inexpensive artificial tree and some new goodies to put on it! I am decidely in the holiday spirit. I've missed it! Last year we were in bad shape and I didn't even decorate my apartment(That was a first!). We are not in much better shape this year, but my attitude is much better and I'm looking forward to all the holidays this season!

Here is to s great week!

Welcome back Jane!...I havemissed you! I'm so glad things are going better now! Still miss you at work, but I'm very glad you are happy!

Love and Bright Blessings,

Amethyst

I truly have felt a sense of closure and feel Dawn wants us to get on with our lives. I didn't feel this sense of closure when I attended my mama's memorial service...Still dealing with it 10 years later...how odd!

Anyway, It is with a lovely warm cup of tea in hand, I look forward to the brisk Cool (COLD to my hubby!) night. It has FINALLY become autumn here...our nights are in the forties and our days in the sixties! I snuggle down under my comforter(I don't get chilly until early in the morning) and I am sleeping so much better now!  I am coming out of hibernation and feel energy and life returning to me in waves! The holidays are coming and next week I have a birthday party to attend on Wednesday night and I am making my famous turkey for Thursday to take over to another friends house. Life does march on and we have to make the most of it. I am ready ( I think?!?).

With much love and Bright Blessings,

Amethyst

The funeral is over, the goodbyes have been said. I feel as if I can break from the void I have been existing in and get back to the business of living. It was a lovely service, but as horrible as I had imagined it to be. This was my first real funeral. I went to my mama's memorial service, but it was different somehow, and I can't explain how. Maybe because the casket was there...I knew it was only a shell in there, but it was very hard. They had a viewing, which I had no intention of participating in, however, in order to say goodbye to Rick (Dawn's husband, they had gotten married in July!) I had to go by the casket. It was one of my biggest fears, one I had had since I was a child. For Rick's sake, I swallowed my fear (It was the size of a basketball!) and went to him. And I looked...and it wasn't her! It looked somewhat like her, but she wasn't there. Howerver, it was standing room only for the service, this woman was deeply loved by many people, it was very touching.~~Afterward, our group went to eat and talk, remember, and smile. And now, I return to the land of the living...I will live my life more fully, for we have no idea when our lives will end or how many people our lives will touch!

Love and Brightest of Blessings,

Amethyst

Tomorrow is the funeral. How I am dreading it. Thank goodness for the circle of friends that will be there, our hearts, out thoughts, all together to see us through this saddest of gatherings. We are going to hold a wake for her later, probably next weekend, so we can celebrate her life and all she meant to us, but for now we mourn her passing and the hole that is left in our circle and our lives.

My heart is heavy and I continue to cry a river of tears. Thursday afternoon, I received a call that one of my friends from my group had died unexpectedly. She was about my age and saving up to get married next year. Complications from asthma...how absurd it seems. She and her intended were so excited about thier lives and all they had to look forward to in the coming year and the rest of their lives!

I have lost dear ones before, my grandparents and my mama. They all left this life much earlier than they should have, but Dawn...we are in our early forties, I constantly joke about being 42 going on 16.  I know these things happen...I know life is not fair, but with everyone I have lost, I never got to say good-bye. That angers me more than anything else, not getting to tell them one last time, how much they mean to me. Every one of my losses was sudden and totally unexpected and I have never really felt any sense of closure! 

So, the lesson I have learned...yet again...Now is the time to let family, friends, all those dearest to you, how much you love them. Don't get so caught up in your daily lives, that you don't take the time to show and say how much you love and appreciate those special people in yor life!

You, my Xanga friends, have become an important part of my life. I love you and cherish our friendships. Pass it on...

Amethyst

I have been busy returning to my relatively normal life (And I stress the word relatively!), now that faire season is over. We didn't get home until 4:30 am Monday and I am feeling every hour of sleep deprivation. (The whole weekend was sleep deprived...didn't want to miss anything!)  Unfortunately,  when I am on the verge (or over the verge!) of exhaustion, I get weepy! I HATE when that happens. Can't wait for the weekend! Sleep!

I have missed being here and look forward to more time spent with my friends. I hope all are doing well! (Go Roxy!! Huzzah for you!)

Love and Brightest of Blessings,

Amethyst