June 23, 2001

  • I have had the strangest dreams these last few days (even for me!) I had a dream about my grandma coming to see me. She was as old as she was when she died (about 75) but looked younger and softer...more radiant? She said she was here to help me and I realized we were in what appeared to be her mobile home...she smiled and turned from me and I went exploring. In one room were steele cribs such as one would find in hospitals, and there were children of varying ages in them. They had feeding tubes and oxygen tubes and looked so sad and frightened. My heart went out to them and I wanted to do something, but I couldn't.


    The next room had a whirlpool not unlike what one would find in a physical therapist's office. The next room had a tub with 2 or 3 shower heads and was in front of a big picture window. It didn't occur to me that this was just wrong. A really good-looking man came in and asked me if I was going to use it...I'm not sure what I said, but he smiled, turned on the water and there were some darling little children playing in the tub. (Which, by the way, was much shallower than I had orignally thought.)


    The next dream was interesting too! I was with a little girl, about 8 or 9 years old. We were talking and laughing and I held up what I believe was a ren faire costume, but was too little for her. I asked her if she wanted me (I don't remember my husband in either dream)to adopt her...or if she would mind if I adopted her. I believe she wanted it as much as I did.


    Next thing I knew, I was watching 2 or 3 young boys playing stringed instruments and I heard Scarborough Faire. One of the boys was a spirit and I knew he was and it was okay. They talked to me, but I have no clue what we talked about.


    Now it occurs to me that I have been trying to come to terms with the fact that I probably won't ever have a child of my own, but this is very different for me. I very rarely dream about members of my family that have died (my grandma, grandpa, and mama) or those who are still here with me, but this is the second dream in a couple of weeks that has had my family in them. The one before had my mama in it and it was a strange one too!


    Anyway...I had to put them in writing, I remember so much detail(wish I could have remembered more, I feel as if there are some important things I missed!) and they have stayed with me, they begged to be put to paper (so to speak...) I have much pondering to do!


    Bright Blessings,


    Amethyst